I did not see my value. And I asked God "How can I see my value when in my life no one was there who truly showed me that they value me? Look," I pointed on my way back, "there is no one who stayed beside me, not one person! They scatter, they come and go like the dust in the wind, they puff away every single one of them...
I know that nothing happens without Your permission, no one can go against Your will. So what is Your will in this damned walk of mine? Why are You allowing this in my life? I'm asking YOU, I want to hear YOUR answer, so tell me God!"
And He gently said "I don't see the things the way you do, daughter..."
"I know that, I'm asking You how You see the things! I have nothing valuable on me according to the expectations and standards of this world. How do You expect me to know my value? How can You expect from me not to look at the eyes of the people? How? Are You not enough for me? What am I supposed to do to be able to understand what it means to have my value in You?"
And He answered: "Your value is in My love. Your value is in My love for you."
And He changed my vision of my way that was cold, grey and empty, to HIS vision of my way. Just a second ago I was walking on the way I had imagined how my way was like, steadily looking back. And then God slides away the grey and it got bright. And my feet suddenly noticed something silky and my gaze wandered from the empty past to my feet and I realized that it was silk under my feet. And I looked up to the front and the path was covered with silk. And the Lord said "Your path may be stony but look, I have covered it with silk." Silk? I thought. The silk was pure white, as if it was washed by the blood of Jesus, as pure as the Lamb of God. And as I thought that, behold, the Lamb of God was walking and jumping before me... full of joy seeing me, full of excitement and love. And He said "I'm here, dandy, I'm always here and I will never let you down!" And I walked to Him and He took my hand and started to dance with me through the path. "You are valuable enough just because I have My heart on you. You are My love, I didn't ever call any other creation of Mine My love. Isn't this worth enough? Don't you enjoy this privilege? I gave My life for you and I would do it again if it's necessary. But am I not enough already?" And I tell you... if you are in Jesus' arms... you can do nothing but agree whatever He says... because... nothing seems to matter anymore...
And the Lord showed me how I was trying to fish something beyond the silky way. And as I caught something and was about to see what it was, Jesus stepped by and caught what I caught and puff, away it was. I looked at Him, standing like a hero and He took the fishing rod from my hand and tossed it away. "Why are you trying to fish something beyond the path I prepared for you? Look...", He said and gently grabbed my shoulder and turned me around to the path. "... there is enough for you on this path." And I suddenly saw treasures on the silky way. "I already have prepared treasures for you, all you need is on this path. You may not see what these treasures are at first glance but as you continue to walk you will recognize the treasures that you picked up on the way. And dandy, I have MUCH MUCH MOOORE for you! This is nothing until now! I have more! I want to present you with much much more! I want to shower you with presents! So look at Me! Keep your eyes on the path I have prepared for you." And He started to dance with me again and He started to sing over me.
This is my song for you.
Let Me sing over you.
My love is for you.
My heart is on you.
I will never let you go.
I will never let you down.
My heart is on you.
My love is for you.
Nothing can separate you from My heart.
His voice is gentle and handsome and so... full of love...
Do not look back, look in front of you.
Even if the world says you have nothing and that your way of seeing the world is odd, in the end... you have everything... everything you need is prepared in front of your silky way. A way that the Lamb of God is walking in front of you, leading the way.
The star☆ of Bethlehem showed us the way to the Lamb and the Lamb was the way... the way that leads us to a place beyond our imaginations...
Your way may be stony but behold, Jesus stretched the silk above the way through His blood.
Do you understand your value...?
Christmas is approaching... and I think this is a great gift God gave me and I hope you too now, reminding us how we have everything in Jesus Christ, the greatest gift God could ever make... and that His love gives us the value we did not deserve but yet received... just because...
I wish you everyone... a very blessed Christmas☆ remembering the Joy that was given to us. Let us thank God for the Everything, Jesus Christ...
Thank You Jesus...