After I was called by Jesus and I decided to follow His will He blessed me and showed me a vision that I will never forget... I still can see it clearly before me.
It was very dark, mostly black. He showed me people from this world going their own ways. And I heard their voices cursing and hating God, laughing at Him and blaspheming, ignoring and denying Him. But then their voices faded and their hearts appeared out of darkness, glowing red. And the voices of their hearts roared up. It was the most painful thing I have ever heard. No words but some kind of screams. And I saw how the hearts tried to tear themselves out from the body, to reach out to one specific direction - the Light (=Jesus). They were all crying out for the only Light that was in this darkness. The Light was like a magnet for all hearts. But people just didn't let it go, clinging, fighting... People who say they hate God, curse and laugh at Him,... their hearts actually long for God's love... Since God let me see people from His point of view, I understood so many things in so many ways and started to see and treat people in a bit different way. I've heard so many times from so many people "Everyone is looking for something in this world." and I always knew that it was Jesus but now it became more clear and vivid for me. This vision had become the core motivation for me, wishing to reach out to as many people as possible. And I say... please Jesus, Lord... please save... This is the love and vision God gave me for Japan around April 2011.
As a Korean I grew up hearing the grown up badmouthing Japanese and hating them. Maybe you know a little about the relationship between Japan and Korea but it isn't really good... So I automatically hated them, too. Very much you can say... But on January 2011, I was busy preparing for a mission-trip to Albania, suddenly I had this love for Japan. But I found it too weird and I was too busy for other things anyway, that I blocked it out of my brain and heart. But in Albania that feeling came back, this time stronger than the last. So I started to talk about Japan with the missionaies in Albania (I think they were pretty confused that I suddenly talked about Japan. I mean, I was there to serve Albanian oh my XD). Don't misunderstand me, I really love Albanian, they are wonderful, they are in my heart and I had a really blessed time there. But I was asking... There are so many missionaries and stories in Africa, India or other countries, but what about Japan? Do they send people to Japan? So... that was the time when I started to pray for Japan. And when I hardly started to pray for Japan... the Tsunami came. And I was like "What.. the...?! -ㅁ-;;", but didn't give it too much of thoughts except "This had to happen, huh...?!". I felt sorry for them but there was no sadness or anything. Just kept praying for them. But in April, I was praying for some other things, God suddenly showed me a vision/like a short movie. I never experienced something like that before. He showed me the Tsunami again... live. I saw how this huge wave came and destroyed everything. It did not only take the buildings and nature, but also the memories of people, beloved ones, treasures, important belongings and many other things we could not see with our own eyes on pics or vids... It was horrible for me to see... Then, from the horizon... some shapes came out, saw the left fragments, went on their knees, shouting, crying, hammering on the ground and chest. At that time God showed me how sad He was, too... His heart was in pain, too... He cried with them... Then, form the horizon again, some other shapes came out, less shapes than before. They went to the people who were weeping and shouting and they began to comfort them. I guess they were christians in Japan. Then I saw another wave coming. But this wave was a light and gentle one, like the waves at a sunny beach. And this wave carried a beautiful flower onto the beach. Not a flower from the ocean, but a really beautiful bright one. And this flower, God said, was the symbol of new hope. And I saw someone (I guess Jesus?!) picking up that flower of hope and showing it to the crowd. And as everyone raised their eyes up to see what was going on they saw the hope and it gave them comfort and peace. Even in such situation God's message is love and hope. I do not really know why God showed me this vision. Because I'm not in Japan; I can not speak japanese yet; I don't know anyone there yet; and it's not really easy to go there. I kept asking God why He showed that to me instead of showing to people in Japan who need it more. No answer came. So I just tried to reach out to people over there and share this vision with them. Maybe you know some people who could need this message. And if someone could and would like to translate this to japanese, please contact me, I would be happy! Even if it's been years since the Tsunami I belief God works all things together for the good, amen?! :) I belief and hope someday God will send me to Japan, too. I don't know when and how but in God's plan I will be ready when the time comes. May God's hope be with you. |
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