What is your value?
I did not see my value. And I asked God "How can I see my value when in my life no one was there who truly showed me that they value me? Look," I pointed on my way back, "there is no one who stayed beside me, not one person! They scatter, they come and go like the dust in the wind, they puff away every single one of them... I know that nothing happens without Your permission, no one can go against Your will. So what is Your will in this damned walk of mine? Why are You allowing this in my life? I'm asking YOU, I want to hear YOUR answer, so tell me God!" And He gently said "I don't see the things the way you do, daughter..." "I know that, I'm asking You how You see the things! I have nothing valuable on me according to the expectations and standards of this world. How do You expect me to know my value? How can You expect from me not to look at the eyes of the people? How? Are You not enough for me? What am I supposed to do to be able to understand what it means to have my value in You?" And He answered: "Your value is in My love. Your value is in My love for you." And He changed my vision of my way that was cold, grey and empty, to HIS vision of my way. Just a second ago I was walking on the way I had imagined how my way was like, steadily looking back. And then God slides away the grey and it got bright. And my feet suddenly noticed something silky and my gaze wandered from the empty past to my feet and I realized that it was silk under my feet. And I looked up to the front and the path was covered with silk. And the Lord said "Your path may be stony but look, I have covered it with silk." Silk? I thought. The silk was pure white, as if it was washed by the blood of Jesus, as pure as the Lamb of God. And as I thought that, behold, the Lamb of God was walking and jumping before me... full of joy seeing me, full of excitement and love. And He said "I'm here, dandy, I'm always here and I will never let you down!" And I walked to Him and He took my hand and started to dance with me through the path. "You are valuable enough just because I have My heart on you. You are My love, I didn't ever call any other creation of Mine My love. Isn't this worth enough? Don't you enjoy this privilege? I gave My life for you and I would do it again if it's necessary. But am I not enough already?" And I tell you... if you are in Jesus' arms... you can do nothing but agree whatever He says... because... nothing seems to matter anymore... And the Lord showed me how I was trying to fish something beyond the silky way. And as I caught something and was about to see what it was, Jesus stepped by and caught what I caught and puff, away it was. I looked at Him, standing like a hero and He took the fishing rod from my hand and tossed it away. "Why are you trying to fish something beyond the path I prepared for you? Look...", He said and gently grabbed my shoulder and turned me around to the path. "... there is enough for you on this path." And I suddenly saw treasures on the silky way. "I already have prepared treasures for you, all you need is on this path. You may not see what these treasures are at first glance but as you continue to walk you will recognize the treasures that you picked up on the way. And dandy, I have MUCH MUCH MOOORE for you! This is nothing until now! I have more! I want to present you with much much more! I want to shower you with presents! So look at Me! Keep your eyes on the path I have prepared for you." And He started to dance with me again and He started to sing over me. This is my song for you. Let Me sing over you. My love is for you. My heart is on you. I will never let you go. I will never let you down. My heart is on you. My love is for you. Nothing can separate you from My heart. His voice is gentle and handsome and so... full of love... Do not look back, look in front of you. Even if the world says you have nothing and that your way of seeing the world is odd, in the end... you have everything... everything you need is prepared in front of your silky way. A way that the Lamb of God is walking in front of you, leading the way. The star☆ of Bethlehem showed us the way to the Lamb and the Lamb was the way... the way that leads us to a place beyond our imaginations... Your way may be stony but behold, Jesus stretched the silk above the way through His blood. Do you understand your value...? Christmas is approaching... and I think this is a great gift God gave me and I hope you too now, reminding us how we have everything in Jesus Christ, the greatest gift God could ever make... and that His love gives us the value we did not deserve but yet received... just because... I wish you everyone... a very blessed Christmas☆ remembering the Joy that was given to us. Let us thank God for the Everything, Jesus Christ... Thank You Jesus... As an artist I see a lot of wicked and perverted art works of all around the world. It took me a while to be able to deal with the fact that artists who do not know Christ can only bring out those kind of art... But the saddest thing of all for me are artists who claim their work to be a "christian" one even if they themselves are non-believers. When a non-believer picks up the topic "Christ" and choose to create an art work based on this topic, most possibly it becomes a dead one. Art reflects the artist, what's inside of an artist becomes their art. Inspiration comes from the spirit. A few years ago I went to a cathedral with a tourist from Korea. Coincidentally there was an art exhibition on that day. I wasn't fond of those works and I was trying to find out what exactly disturbed me in that artist's work until I found that one big work. It was huge high relief about the crossed Jesus. I stood there and couldn't believe these kind of work was exhibited in a cathedral.... I was shocked how blind people actually can be. It was the crossed Jesus, yes, but in what kind way? It was pitch black and under the feet of Jesus was a skull. But even if you didn't look at that skull, even if it wasn't there it gave the vibe of fear and death. In the end the message of that artist was "Christ is dead"... with a period... Of course people are just saying "It's a free interpretation of the artist." "The artist is free to do whatever the artist wants to." "Oh, it's a cross, let's put that in the church." "The artist represents the cross of Christ just perfectly in his way." Indeed. In his way. Not in the way of the holy Bible. I asked my company who was a Christian too, what she was thinking of that art. She didn't realize the real message behind the mask... I was so sad and I kept praying and praying about this whole topic... After years I still have a vivid picture of that art in front of my eyes when I remember... Jesus... have mercy... I remembered this because of this photo I saw on facebook going around. This is another example of "Arts that have a Christ title but actually isn't". THAT is NOT a representation of Christ but the Antichrist and demons and in the end - death. Oh beloved of the living Christ Jesus, the most high... I know God protects His own no matter what... but still I pray that He will open your eyes for the things that are behind the mere capture of the eyes and ears; that you may know the truth. Just draw closer to Christ, who is the life and the spirit of love and peace, you will see how easy it will become to distinguish from good and evil. True Christian's art work's messages are what is in Christ – life, love, peace, hope, joy and all that is in them. There is so much encouragement. That's the spirit of the true living Christ. Yes, Christ is alive! Let's celebrate His resurrection! With this song "Like A Lion" by David Crowder Band :D
For a few weeks I was very agitated and I just couldn't put the problem in words. I pretty much avoided confronting God with this and just kept saying God is good and He is not at fault and so on. But I had no peace and I couldn't continue like that so finally I had a conversation with God about this restlessness in me. Let me share a part of that conversation with you...
... and I said "Am I really complaining? [...] How can I say You are my everything but in the next moment I complain? How can I be so stupid? What is wrong with me? Are You a God who gives and takes back Your grace whenever You like? Are Your blessings only a momentary thing? No, that's not true! I thought You are a God who never changes! So I am the incompetent one, I fail, I don't make any sense. How did I get in this mess again?" And as I said those words a voice appeared and the Lord said "It's because you put a muzzle on the Lion!" And as soon as He said that I saw the Lion appearing beside me. "I gave you the Lion and you put a muzzle on Him. It can not roar with a muzzle!" Now I really was confused and asked "How can that be? How come? What's that muzzle? I don't understand?" As I was asking I tried to take that muzzle off but it didn't move an inch. "It won't come off! How do I get this off? What is this, Lord? "It's you focusing on your circumstances instead of My face", said the Lord. And I looked up to the Lion and His eyes, those beautiful eyes, I could see the world, the galaxy in them and they were so gracious and peaceful and full of love... I remembered them... I laid my hands on the muzzle and leaned my forehead on the Lions forehead... "Oh Lord... how could I forget to look at Your face... How can I talk about focusing only on You and then actually not focus on You? I was so busy looking at my circumstances again that I forgot... See, I am weak, I fail and I can't do anything without Your grace... and I asked You every day to help me... because I knew I am weak and that I will stumble again. Please take my weakness, all my sins, my incapability, my stupidity... I lay them down before Your throne... I lay them down before Your cross... I am not the one fighting... You have already fought the battle. For the battles in my mind You bore the crown of thorns so that I can bring my thoughts into captivity, to the obedience of You. Please renew everything in me..." And as I finished my words peace and silence entered. "So... how can I let the Lion roar again? What must I do to take this off?" "Do you love me?", said the Lion. And I said "How can I give You a certain answer to that after this? When I change myself multiple times a day? I don't even trust my own feelings. I want to say I love You but will that actually be the whole truth?" And the Lord replied with a smile: "That's enough. That's enough for Me... I know your heart is Mine. I have your heart and nothing can ever change this fact. No matter in what situation you are, no matter what circumstances, your heart is Mine." "Yes Lord, I gave you my heart, take my heart..." I thought that would take the muzzle off but it didn't... so I asked again "Father, what can destroy this muzzle? How can I destroy this muzzle? I don't know anything! Please help me!" And as soon as I asked, a light came out of my heart and there it was, a sword. And I was like "Oh... right... the word..." And I took the sword and it destroyed the muzzle and the Lion shook His blazing mane and finally could roar. And He roared like never before. [...] And the Lord spoke: "You are My child!" And I was like: "Yeah, I know... but what do You love about me so much? What do You see in me?" "You are My child, My beloved child! I knew you before you were born. And even before you were in the mothers womb I had already decided that you are My child. Before you were born I already prepared the special way only for you." "Yeah but what is that way? What do You want me to do? What do You see in me?", I asked. And He answered "Like an onion I will peel you one layer by another until it will become a beautiful flower. And an onion gives the food its flavor. And I told you already you are my "dandelion". I will take you to a journey for you to fully understand the meaning of this." Brothers and sisters... if you are in the journey as well with the Lord, rejoice... It's like an exciting adventure... Life should be full of adventures, don't you think? And it will be written down in the heavens and it will be called "The Book Of Dandelion", "The Book Of yourName", "The Book Of thatpersonsName"... isn't this exciting... The Lord is good... His thoughts are full of you today. He loves you that much and more... and that's why He will never forsake you... so be overwhelmed today... by His Love... Dwell in His grace and word and rest in His finished work. And again, leaving my failures behind me I confess "He has done it all. In Him I have everything." Praise the Lord the King and God, the Holy One. Thank You Jesus... |
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